"I've been stranded with YOU for quite some time already.
I think it's time to take a step forward."

I used to take my life one step at a time, and i made sure every step is worth taking.

But, when i bumped into YOU, i feel like i rather take it slower than i usually do.

Eventually, i made a STOP--- a rather inconvenient but entertaining STOP.

But, is it worth taking?

With all honesty, that stop was one of the good things that kept me satisfied for the times i needed

an extrinsic taste in my life. It was overwhelming, and much more to say, addictive.

It was the time i felt so satisfied of being who i am when im with you, that i no longer

feel like taking another step and i wanted more and more of those moments.

Yes, i was indeed stuck in the moment.

But not all good things are healthy, isn't it?

Well, of course, when i noticed that THAT STOP was getting unhealthy, i cut the tie.

I realized, I have to go on with my life and focus more on the destination that counts more,

the destination that is much more important to me, the destination that is RIGHT.

(Destinations are my aims when it comes to school, family, friends, self, etc.)

Sad to say, somehow i feel that THAT stop wasn't gonna take me any closer to that destination.

It was getting UNHEALTHY, and i cant do anything much to correct any deviations.

Cutting the tie was the "rightest" thing to do. It gave me the satisfaction

that we'll be facing different directions---two different but right directions.

Cutting the tie didn't mean i'd finally took the step, too.

Although, it gave me a just reason--an urge--to continue my walk.

But did i take the step?

NOPE. I DID NOT. For some reason, i do not know why.

I may have the reason already,

we may not have any connections already,

but, still, i don't feel like moving either of my feet.

WHY?

Maybe, because nothing much has changed. Only the tie, but we're all still the same.

I knew it. I won't be moving. Not, when im not given a PUSH.

You weren't moving, either,  which made me feel im MORE to be blamed,

for its not only me who has been jeopardized by this stop, but also you.

We have our whole life ahead of us, but where are we?

HERE, stuck in this HALLUCINATION that we're still okay, and we're still happy.

I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN. But, i just let it.

I wanted to, but then again, i dont. Mind-bugging decisions. arrgggg..

Nothing's holding me back anymore, no more deep feelings or people,

just the thought that i might miss that HAPPINESS and SATISFACTION.

So, why can't i take that effin' step? WHYYYYYY???????

Then, i heard the news, I'm happy you FINALLY made the step.

I felt much lighter knowing i can no longer be blamed.

You made a step, but i know, you're still looking back.

I won't meet your eyes, i wont take you aback.

So that sooner or later, you'll face front, hold your place, look straight, and know your aims.

It would be a healthier start. You'd be a better person than you already are.

Now, am i left out? OF COURSE, NOT.

Because here i am, NOW, lifting my right foot, planning to take the step.

FINALLY.

AM I TAKING THE STEP BECAUSE I WAS GETTING LEFT OUT?

super duper of course, NOT! no. no. NO.

im taking the step because now i've been pushed.

this was the push i've been waiting for.

the push that removed my guilt of breaking someone's heart,

and the push that opened my eyes from all those HALLUCINATIONS.

It's clearer now, i have to step.

You were ahead of me; when you made the stop. i stopped.

when you stayed, i stayed. when you moved, i found space to move forward, too.

I WAS BEHIND BECAUSE I WAS, at the first place, ALREADY GUILTY.

Guilty of treating you less than you deserved.

It's all clear. we're not meant to walk together, you are suppose to walk ahead of me.

And we're happier this way.

can't you see? im happy. you're happy.

NOW, IS IT WORTH IT? IS IT WORTH THE STOP?

above all odds, its worth it. but not worth another stop. :)

THANK YOU for that wonderful stop, though.

I guess, that's what i needed to keep my head back up straight.

waaa. i just read your criticisms and sarcasms.
im quite late to have read it now, eh? ahaha..
too bad for you, my confidence just got boosted, instead!

you commented on how good i look in photos (as if it wasn't a compliment). you're so NEGA!

even though you put it that way, well, i should tell you that my uniqueness, attitudes and Filipina beauty (including a not-so-fair-skin and filipina traits--not going with cliches) gives quite a remarkable touch-up to your first judgment. and that's were you should focus at. not on appearances. attitudes darling!

anyways, back to what you put up with.
at least, my photos aren't edited. not even one of them has been touched by any form of photoshop. ahaha.. its not with the angles, or light-settings.
admit it, i just look good no matter how you put it.

yea, you look good too. i cant deny. and your slender,.but i will never envy you---not with that attitude.
you're not good enough to be entertained,.(this is my 1st time to brag about my looks and attitudes-- guilty, but she pushed me to the limits. i have been quiet for a while because im a nice girl, but still, she went on with her *point-out to somebody status*..wait till she sees my OTHER side.)

REMEMBER: Before you put up with rush judgments, you should try to remember the quote " there is more than meets the eye!"
i have never judged you with anything that isn't obvious.
JUST BECAUSE YOUR INSANE OVER YOUR BOYFRIEND, DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO DRAG ME INTO IT!

and FYI. just because someone admires your BF doesn't mean she's going to do anything just to get your BF! c'mmon, we have a life, too, you know, and that doesn't include your boyfriend.

okay, to clear things out.
first, you should be proud of yourself to have a BF which lots of girls drool over and fantasized about even if that would be too juvenile. but still you should be proud,.
second, trusting your bf is more important than keeping him from socializing.
third, about what you intend to make me understand but you actually failed to, communication is still the key to success.you could have chatted with me over FB (since you usually caught me online) instead of wasting your time posting RIDICULOUS STATUS! dont you know that other people might actually judge you for that? doesn't it matter to you that your identity might be stained. that people might judge you negatively regarding of being such of a clingy girl friend? what you're doing is close to getting caught in a SCANDAL. seeesh, do people still care for character and identity?gaaah. im glad i still do.
fourth, you dont have to include your friends. i understand how friends help friends, but involving them in things that might cause their chance in going to heaven (ahahaha), is just playing rude, you know!! SELFISH actually!
LASTLY, i am not flirting with your boyfriend. i wasn't, im not, and i would never intend to! it doesn't mean that my clear and innocent admiration to him is soo-known that i would actually go straight at him, kiss him or maybe seduce him. i could never do that. i still have a NAME and DIGNITY to protect. waaaa. besides. the picture you saw was nothing. it was just a 16yr-old girl pushed to having a pic with a friend.. i could barely even call him a friend. gaaah. open your eyes already! wla akong ginawa. wla kang napatunayan! so, wla kang dapat i judge! jealousy is jealousy. that's it! im out of the picture.

if nahihirapan ka pa rin sa pag intindi, then there's definitely something wrong with you.

stop na ung mga status, ok?, its irritating. i know, di lng sa akin lahat ng status mo kasi dami kang kaaway, but pls. for everybody's sake. STOP! dont be a coward. go and tell me,or tell them! this applies in behalf of all your "kaaways"...

ok, para mas masaya ka, di lng yang boyfriend mo ang hinahangaan ko. it just so happened that he was the closest one to reach. pero hanggang dun lng.. d ako bobo.
im wiser than a hermit, actually.di nga smarter, but wiser.


haisxz.
yan tuloy.ii forgot to remind myself, IM AN "ANGEL", just like what my name suggests.i wont risk any chance of giving that name up just because someone's insecured. i'll let you pass this time. put up another fight with me and you'll see how "ANGELS" handles situations like this.

GOD BLESS you, ____! :))

send my regards to your boyfriend.