Thank you 2016. Bring it on 2017!

When 2015 left, and 2016 happened my basic mantra was to #TakeRisks #LiveBoldly .

It was a good mantra to follow.
With that, I started out the year fine. It was fun. Lots of parties, adventure, and spontaneous road trips. In other aspects, I was more outspoken, aggressive, brave and positive. I feared less, and let go of 'what ifs' more. But not everything went quite well.

2016 was also a very challenging year for me.
For a large part of it, I had lots of painful and really sad experiences.
I lost two of my favorite aunts who is now with the Lord. One of them left in May and the other in November. (We missed you so much Aunt Betty and Aunt Remy.)
I also had experienced failure and defeat, and even went to a rough heart break. It was a rough year. For those who were there to witness it, I know you understand.

Looking back I really don't know how I got pass through it. It was difficult. Even academically speaking, I was struggling. Emotionally, I was striving to pull it all together.

But despite all that, 2016 was my year of DISCOVERY.
I discovered that I was strong, brave, and capable of hurdling giant obstacles. I discovered  that I wasn't weak, and that I was even smarter than I thought I was. I discovered I had family and friends to lean on---family and friends who did not leave me even if I was unbearable at the moment.

Yes, in 2016, I was awakened by harsh realities----that not everyone we meet are worth the time, and worth the sincerity we give them.
That not everything we want will happen. That not everything we aim for will be ours.

I learned it the hard way. I've even made LOTS OF MISTAKES along the way trying to fix them. But I realized, NOT EVERYTHING CAN BE FIXED.

2016 was harshly memorable.
To top it all off, I even spent my 23rd birthday alone in the boarding house preparing for an exam.

It was hard, but still, it was rewarding.
Rewarding in the sense that what I am today is my trophy dedicated to myself.
I became a whole new person. Someone more real, and wiser. Someone who appreciates beauty more after seeing all the bad things. Cliche as it may sound, 2016 molded me to become better.

Now you may think 2016 was a sad year for me.
It was difficult, yes. But sad? NO.

As a matter of fact, it was still amazing. It was a mixture of everything. It just went by so fast.
2016 could even make up to my list of favorite years. It was really something!

To be fair, I had wonderful memories.

1. 2016 was the year my youngest sister turned 18.
At Grand Menseng Hotel.

2. Mom and Dad's Get-Away (from us) Trip
HongKong -Macau Trip

3. I hosted and performed during the Conflicts of Law 2016

4. I had my first SUMMERFROLIC experience in Mati. Read here.


5. I experienced being a Paralegal Officer at Kiblawan during the May 9, 2016 elections. We were paid well that day. HAHAHA!

6. Finally resumed applying for the SSEAYP program. Unfortunately, I wasn't chosen. But it was fine. I was glad I reconnected with old friends and gained new ones. I hope I can apply again this year, and finally, be chosen.

7. For a LAW student, travelling is a rare opportunity. But thank God, I did. I got to travel for a short vacay to Bucas Grande, Sohoton, Surigao del Norte, and visit Banana Beach, Hijo, Tagum.

Banana Beach Resorts.


Sohoton Cove.

Jelly fish sanctuary.

8. Of course, #TTTProjectGiveBack2016 and #ExploreCateel Annual Year-End Experience. I'll write about it soon. But here are a few pictures.

Hello again, Aliwagwag Falls!

At Baybay Cream Sand Long Beach.

with old and new friends.

You see, 2016 was a very colorful year. I was so glad I witnessed and experienced it all. That I actually participated in life. It just shows that I wasn't just alive, but I was actually living, too.

Reviewing all that has happened, I have come up with a new mantra for 2017.

This 2017 will be my year!
I will move on from bad experiences and focus on making new happy ones! I will move on from heartaches, things and people who are not healthy to me and my life, and MOVE FORWARD. I will strive hard to excel and be better. I will let go of people who hurt me and focus on those who care for me.

I will focus on great things and will aim for bigger things. I will use all those that I have learned in 2016 to make 2017 an even better year.

More importantly, I will LET GO, AND LET GOD. This year, I will also focus on rekindling my faith and connection with God. This thought alone gives me strength that whatever 2017 has in store for me, I will be strong enough to face it.

This is me---ready for 2017. Looking forward to a better year! Always positive.

So, 2017, bring it on! *love love love*

My First BeautyMNL Haul

I'm a makeup enthusiast, but my problem is that I don't have much time to go on shopping or looking for new hauls.

Thank God for technology, everything now is ONLINE! Even makeup shopping can now be done online!

I love Online Shopping because of its convenience, that is why I really appreciate how useful is.

I appreciate how convenient and easy it is to access the site. Plus, beautyMNL is complete. It has everything, if not all, most of my makeup fantasies and needs.

Hence, when I had my first BeautyMNL shopping haul, I was so super excited I had everything documented. HAHAHA! :)

I got the package 5days after I placed my order online.

So...this is the packaging.

Let's look what's inside..

It's wrapped with a thick layer of bubble wrap to make sure that the stuff we ordered do not get ruined upon shipment...

So here are the stuffs I got...

The St.Ives Facial Scrub and the Tresemme shampoo and conditioner were freebies. Thank you! :)

My hauls are the Loreal Infallible Pro-Matte Foundation (Php600), Olay Toner (Php202), and Dove White Beauty Bar (Php48).

Aside from the usual stuff, I especially loved the Loreal Infallible ProMatte Foundation. I really wanted to buy the Foundation for a while now but I couldn't really find the time to purchase one because of my busy schedule. Good thing BeautyMNL sells this!

I got mine in the Golden Beige shade.

I don't have a fair complexion so I opted for a shade which I believe suits me. So, this one is Golden Beige. I must admit, this one is a tad bit darker than my skin color. It was chosen in error. Errr, not really a mistake; more like serendipity!

Fortunate accident, I loved it!
Super! No kidding. I loved how I mistakenly chose this shade!
Serendipity! I'll tell you why. But first...

I like this product because of a lot of things.

First, its packaging is very hygienic. The sponge is separated from the powder. Pls see video clip below.


Second, I like that it lives up to its reputation that it is long-lasting, has full coverage and is lightweight.

YES! It sticks to my skin as if it is my own skin. Plus, it covers the areas which are less pretty. Plus plus, it lasts for almost (not exactly) 16-hours. I like that I don't have to retouch every now and then when I use this product.

As I said though, this is a tad bit darker for me, that is why I use it also as a sort of bronzer. I use it in moderation for the rest of my face but for the edgy part or the parts which I like to be a bit darker, I use it alot...So it doubles for me as a bronzer.
Ever since I used this, I get compliments all the time. Stuffs like 'Hey, you look blooming/glowing' or like 'Did you slim down?'. I swear!
Serendipity, I say, that I discovered this use! :)

To rate this item, 1 being the lowest and 10 the highest, I'd give this one a 9! No joke! It deserves a 9. I love Loreal, in general, AND in specific,  I SUPER LOVE THIS INFALLIBLE PROMATTE FOUNDATION! :)

If you wanted to avail of this product, too, visit !
I know you'll find other more stuff to purchase, and you won't regret it.
They usually have items at a discount, so what else do you need more?

BeautyMNL is complete and convenient! Perfect, right? I can't wait for my next haul, and when I do shop again, I'll share it to you once more! yaaaay! <3 p="">

REVIEW: Maybelline Dream Satin Skin Liquid Foundation + Dream Satin Skin Two Way Cake

Disclaimer: This is not a paid post.

Hi, everyone!

This is my first ever official makeup review. Yaaaaay!

I have always wanted to do makeup reviews but I don't seem to have enough TIME and GUTS to do it. So, I usually end up sharing my thoughts about certain makeup products I use, only, through my social media accounts. However, by some divine intervention, I finally have decided to do one here in my blog. Excuse my work, by the way, I'm still a bit rusty.

I'm no makeup expert, but because I love makeup so much I usually have a 'few' things to say about certain products. 

To start, I'd like to share with you one of my favorite drugstore makeup brand, Maybelline.
I like their products because aside from being affordable, this brand delivers.

I'll be sharing with you my thoughts on Maybelline Dream Satin Skin Liquid Foundation and their Dream Satin Skin Two Way Cake. I will also share with you a little of my thoughts about their Maybelline Fit Me Concealer.

MAYBELLINE Dream Satin Skin Liquid Foundation

Maybelline Dream Satin Skin Liquid Foundation in B2 shade
The liquid foundation costs around Php499 and comes in a glass container with a pump. It contains SPF 24 PA ++, and it claims to provide satin smooth looking skin. Its description says it's long lasting, moisturizing and does not clog pores.

The consistency is very lightweight and 'blendable'. It spreads easily. I have mine in the shade of B2 which is a bit yellowish; great for girls who have yellow undertones.

When applied:

The product is very lightweight and has some dewiness to it, that when applied, it gives you that soft silky healthy glow.

I have a normal to dry skin type. So, personally, I like this kind of finish--- dewy and satin. It makes my skin look youthful. I'd probably use this on days that are less humid. Otherwise, if its humid,it might wear off easily and I'd always have to do touch-ups. Hassle!

I don't advise people who have oily skin to use this. Sorry, I don't think this product is for you.

With regard to coverage, I think it is only medium, not full. So to help cover those dark spots, pimple scars and eye bags, I suggest you still use concealer. OR, you just apply another layer of the foundation to get that full coverage.

 However, in the photos above, I used Maybelline Fit Me Concealer. I just dab the concealer on the target areas, and voila, you can't even see the dark pimple scars I have on my chin and forehead. Super magical item!

Here's a photo of my abused Maybelline Fit Me Concealer in Deep Fonce.
Its writings are already erased. Sorry!
It is proof that it was loved, used and abused.

Moving on...

Maybelline Dream Satin Skin Two Way Cake

Maybelline Dream Satin Skin Two Way Cake in B5
The powder costs around Php399 and comes in this beige compact case with MAYBELLINE engraved into its cover. It contains SPF 32 PA +++, and claims to provide a non-cakey, ultra breathable satin skin finish that lasts all day.

In this review, I used the powder to set the liquid foundation using my Innoxa Kabuki brush.

I don't know how to describe it, but it's beautifully matte and satin at the same time. It's also very light on your face.

 In the video above, it worked perfectly as a setting powder. However, I think it would also work well on its own. It has a better coverage than the liquid foundation and I think it lasts longer. It's perfect for girls on the go, just like me.

I think this would also be the perfect foundation to use on humid days, as compared to the liquid foundation. Plus, those who have oily skin would definitely like this finish. This one is definitely for you, guys!

All in all, I liked the above-mentioned products. But I don't really agree that they'd last the whole day. Not in my case. You'd still have to do touch ups though, but not as often. Maybe an interval of 3-4 hours, depending on the skin type.

Here are a few vanity shots with both the liquid foundation and the two-way cake on:

Anyway, that's all for now.
Thank you for reading my review. I'd appreciate it if you leave me a comment on what you think about my first review.

Maybelline usually sell these items at a lower cost when on promo, so I suggest you should always be on the lookout for these promos. Good luck!

The Ugly Truth About ‘Almost Relationships’ And Why I’ll Never Do It Again (Reposted)

I never thought I could get myself into an ‘almost relationship’, one that starts out fast, and ends fast. And I never thought that an ‘almost relationship’ could also break my heart.

The thing about ‘almost relationships’ is that there is potential for an actual relationship. It could bloom into one, right? And that’s the exact downfall about it. You keep hoping and praying that it’s going to turn into something beautiful. You keep thinking that it will until he texts you that he has changed his mind.

You keep thinking that it’ll turn into a love story, until he really does change his mind and walks out.

I was positive it was going to work out with this guy. I got giddy when I saw him. My heart beat out of my chest when I was with him, and I felt breathless in his presence. I introduced him to my friends. I slept over at his place. I told him my deepest secrets. I kissed him like I could only kiss a boyfriend. I gladly, let him walk into my life.

And I never expected him to walk out.

You never expect people to let you down when you feel strongly about them. You never expect yourself to fall for someone who has the audacity to do that to you. But sometimes, people blindside you.

People change their minds in a day. People walk out. People leave.

I thought it was my fault, truth be told. It seemed like he had done a 360 degree turn. One day he was kissing me and telling me I was beautiful, and the next he was saying goodbye with no remorse. I thought it was me that was the problem. Could I have done something to change his mind? Could I have said something wrong?

But it wasn’t my fault at all. It was his. He wasn’t ready. And he found another pretty little thing to play with soon after. 

With ‘almost relationships’, there are always going to be questions. But it’s not your fault if it goes awry. If he walks out, it isn’t you. It isn’t what you said or what you did. It’s just him. It’s his issue and his loss.

‘Almost relationships’ can be incredibly heartbreaking.

Even more so than a breakup from a significant other. Why? Because it can happen suddenly, without warning. And it can end badly. Usually, more often that not, it’s going to end badly.

Don’t put yourself through it. Don’t give your heart to someone who isn’t ready. Don’t let an ‘almost relationship’ break your heart. Don’t welcome someone into your life, without even asking him what he wants or what he sees in his future. I made the mistake of not asking. I made the mistake of falling. I made the mistake of trusting someone, who I thought would never want to break me. Turns out, I guess I didn’t know him well enough.

People do shitty things. And it doesn’t mean that they are bad people. It doesn’t mean that they don’t have hearts. It just means that they sadly were on a different page.

They weren’t ready for the light you shined so brightly. They weren’t ready for your brilliance.

It will sting when they leave you. It’s going to knock the wind out of you, darling. That’s the thing about ‘almost relationships’. They always will knock you down. 

Why We Should Forgive Those Who Hurt Us

Why should we forgive?

I don't know. In my case I forgive people because I realized I am not perfect. I realized I have made mistakes, and I've done them wrong. That I am also to be blamed why people hurt me because I hurt them, too. Or maybe, I may not have hurt them but I pushed them to act that way. Thoughts like, baka naman kasi ako ang problema, kaya nagawa niya yun.

I also think I forgive people because I finally understand why they hurt me. I finally understand circumstances that lead them to act that way. That it was out of their control; that they did not mean it. That they were really not at fault. That I was just a collateral damage.

I don't think there's anything wrong with these reasons. As a matter of fact, these are the most logical reasons I can think why I should forgive another.
  It's easy to forgive when the other person is not at all evil, and you believe they really deserve forgiveness.
But what if, no matter how hard you think, you can never rationalize why that other person hurt you? What if all you can think of is how evil the other person is for hurting you on purpose? What if all you've shown was kindness but that other person still sought to destroy you?

I mean, di mo naman sila sinaktan. You've been nice to them naman. You did everything you are capable of doing, believing you could be treated similarly.

You gave more than you can give. You loved people more than they deserve. You showed them kindness and love. Wala kang ibang ginawa kundi maging mabuti. But still, they intentionally hurt you. They played you. (And feeling mo you don't deserve to be treated bad kasi you treated them well.)

Are the above-mentioned reasons still applicable? Can you still forgive? If so, why? WHY SHOULD YOU FORGIVE?
Why should you forgive someone, who:
                 #1. Never asked forgiveness (personally and sincerely) from you;
                 #2. Never explained why they hurt you; and
                 #3. Never had any reason to hurt you, but they did anyway.
Di'ba, mahirap? It's hard to forgive someone who you think does not deserve forgiveness.

That even if they ask for it, you'd want them to feel guilty about it. You'd want them to feel remorse, to feel pain, to feel GUILT. Most of all, you want to be even with them. You want revenge.
You want justice for the pain they have caused you.

Would you still want to forgive, when you believe forgiving them also means CONDONING ALL THEIR ACTIONS and letting them off the hook? That forgiving them means MAKING THEM FEEL LESS GUILTY ABOUT THEMSELVES? Would you still want it?

Of course, not.
It's a slight relief to see those who hurt you get, if not hurt, upset. Even the slightest hint of uneasiness on their part is a relief. A big sigh.

But are we happy? Are we okay? Does it take away the heaviness in our heart?

Yes, a little. It does. Uhmmm, no, it doesn't. Wait, let me think.

If we think about it real hard, the heaviness we feel just sticks to the corners of our hearts. It may not be as painful as it originally was, yes; but it's still there in our hearts, heavy as a dumbbell.

You don't recognize it as pain or hurt, anymore. It's something else, something easier to bear with but still as heavy as pain; It's anger.

This anger consumes us. It's addictive and, at the same time, comforting.

In my experience, I think it's good to dwell into anger.
I mean, nung mga time na galit ako sa taong nanakit sa akin, I was so productive.
Ang busy ko bigla; lakad dito, lakad doon. Aral double time, busi-busyhan kahit di naman. Kasi ayaw mo isipin ang taong nanakit sa'yo kasi lalo ka lang maiinis.

Then one day during those 'angry' times, I suddenly feel wiser and better because I am comforted with thoughts like, eto sasabihin mo sa sarili mo, 'Worth it ka. Hindi mo deserve masaktan.' 'Di naman siya kagwapuhan, ah?' 'Ano bang pinagmamalaki niya?' 'Hindi ko naman yun siya ka-level, bat ba ako nag-aadjust?' 'Hindi siya worth it' and many more. After that, I don't feel like crying or hurting anymore.

Di'ba aminin, it's good to dwell into anger. You feel like you can finally think straight. Nakakapag-isip ka na nang tama, nakaka-develop ka pa talaga ng self-worth.
But even so, don't dwell on it too long.
Yes, hate helps; but too much of it ruins the core of our being. It loses our identity.
Hate kills a part of us that is beautiful. In reality, hate doesn't make us better. It makes us bitter.
More so, it places that person who hurt you in a permanent place in your heart. That hate becomes your identity. You become jaded to that hate and  to that person. You are confined to that hate; and as much as we deny it, that hate makes us think more and more of that person.

With that confinement to hate, we fail to see beautiful things and people that come our way. We fail to appreciate honesty, integrity and love. In other words, we get stuck in a seemingly sad reality where nothing good ever happens.
While everything else is moving on, you are still there...stuck.
Hate becomes this chain shackling you to the past polluting your heart with bitterness, fear, distrust and anger. Hate is just another way of holding on...and you don't want that anymore.

After giving it some time, I have come up with these beautiful reasons to forgive.

I am not saying that after making up this list I have already granted forgiveness. It's not that easy.
In my case, I am yet to forgive the person who caused me pain; but still, I'm relieved to know I have in me that drive to forgive. I am happy that I am actually capable of forgiving. Just allow it to take time.


Because it doesn't help to be angry.
As cliche as it sounds, forgive because it's the best thing to do.

Forgive, not because you want to mend ties, but because you don't want to burn bridges.
Forgive because you are not destructive; you are kind and pure.

Forgive because you want to wake up every day with a lighter heart.
Forgive because you don't want to miss out on a lot of beautiful things in life.

Forgive because life is easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got.

Forgive because you want to get well and move on. You want to be free from all attachments that came with the pain and anger. Forgive because you want to let go.

Forgive because you want freedom.

Forgive because you want peace of mind.

Forgive because you know your worth. You know you are someone genuine and precious and that you deserve to be happy.

Forgive because you love yourself more than you hate the person.

Forgive because you do it for yourself. Forgive because you choose YOU.
Forgive because you value yourself.
Forgive, not because that person deserves it, but because you deserve it.
Forgive so that you may heal.

Forgive because you owe it to yourself.

(Photo not mine.)

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