Hi. It's nice to see you, again. It's nice to be with you again. How long has it been? 6 months? A year? It seems we really lost touch of the things we used to do together. Ohhhh, the days. I still remember how bitter we parted. Or should I say, how bitter I was when we parted. LOL.

Looking back, I realized you never did anything wrong. I was the one to blame for getting my own heart broken. You were innocent.. You didn't act out; you just played a good friend. Right? You didn't know what was going on. You didn't know what was coming.

 I was the one stupid enough to think something was up. I was the one who always assumed that my thoughts will reach yours. I was the one who disregarded the evidences of your disinterest. I was the one who broke my own walls to reach out to you. I was the one who caught myself off-guard. I was the one who was holding you, always clinging on to you.. It was never two-way. It never was.

When i got hurt, we parted. No words, just space. I secretly took grudge,thinking you led me on then broke my heart. But then, now I know, I was the one at fault. You didn't know. AND, it's not your fault you didn't feel the way I do.

I CARED TOO MUCH. That was my mistake. I BELIEVED TOO MUCH IN LOVE STORIES and the type where everything will work out with hidden feelings and secret crushes. HAHA. I guess, reality sank in to me the hard way.

Anyways, now that our roads crossed paths again, I WILL NEVER LET THE SAME MISTAKE ruin us.

FROM NOW ON, I will make it up to you.
I will no longer see you the way I see fireworks in the sky.
I will never feel about you the way my stomach feels on an extreme ride at a theme park.
I will not let my hands hold you the way I hold an antique vase.

As promised, I will loosen the grip. Forget what I always keep.

You can count on me that from this day forward, we will always be friends. JUST FRIENDS, No more no less.

JUST FRIENDS, just the way everything had always been before we were put to the test.

"Sorry, minahal kita. Hayaan mo, di na mauulit."
SWEAR! :)


Sincerely,

ANGEL ♥

"Twists and turns;

Frowns and smiles.

Heads and tails;

Black and white.

Everything wasn't perfect;

But still, things went right.

Everything was stressful;

But then again, tonight was alright."

A brief expression of how I feel after the CPA Convocation we had tonight. ♥

SNEAK PEEK:

--- i read this somewhere, and i couldn't get over it. HAHA. so, magpapaka-tumblr post muna ako dito. :)

PS. got my keepsakes-watermark na! yey me. here's a closer look. :)

made by (yours truly) ANGEL.  :)

MY FAVORITE DELENA SCENE. ♥

“I love you, Elena. And it’s because I love you that I can’t be selfish with you, why you can’t know this. I don’t deserve you, but my brother does. God, I wish you didn’t have to forget this, but you do.”

i got bored so i went through youtube videos of vampire diaries and came across this.
i remembered this scene and how i felt when i saw it.

i always find this scene the most romantic scene ever..and apparently, also the most heartbreaking scene for my dear, Damon.. Damon's tears broke me.

i also remembered the scene at the last episode of season 3 whereby Damon reminisces his first meeting with Elena, just before the car accident with her parents. he also compelled Elena to forget that event. why does he keep doing that? arrrrrgg., it pisses me off.

Anyways, i'm just glad that by season 4, Elena will finally remember everything---- this "i love you, elena" scene and their first meeting. ♥_♥

now, i'm just so excited for season 4;
ang TAGAAAAAL ng 4months! :'((

It's about time that i have a date with TWO OF THE MOST AMAZING GIRLS I KNEW IN MY ENTIRE LIFE..

I haven't been out for a while now due to random issues. I kind of feel bad about it, though, considering it's SUMMER----a time to have fun, to gallivant, and to spend quality time with family and friends.

It's a good thing that I finally stepped out of my hiding spot and met up w/ these awesome ladies..


It has been forever since I've last met them. I've missed April for about a year now and Karla for more than 2 months. Hence, it was really a great relief to see them last May 9 (Wednesday) all good and beautiful.

We ate dinner at Shakey's Pizza Restaurant, Gov. Duterte St., Davao City (near GS Ilustre, fronting GRUB cafe)..

from left to right: Karla, me, and April ♥

what would be a dinner date without food---especially to food lovers like us? so, we ordered...

Shakey's basket of chicken 'n mojos

Shakey's Hi Protein Supreme Pizza

...and a pitcher of their sumptuous iced tea.

Above all, i loved their chicken the best. it's the best chicken i've ever tasted compared with other food counters i have been to. i even think that it tastes better than the chicken my family and i once had at Max's Restaurant----and that Max's chicken was really good, i just think this one's better.

The food is fulfilling to the stomach, but the best part of this whole dinner date is the conversation and the loooooong hours of chikahan.. we chatted for about 4hours---well, we've had a lot of catching up done. Then, we decided to continue the conversation elsewhere. But before heading out, we did some snapshots inside the famous ladies' photo booth ----the ladies' room. LOL

Afterwards, we headed out and enjoyed a little late night walk with a few "biruan" and "harutan"---just like we used to.

Sure, a lot of things have changed in each of us, but it's overwhelming to know we still have the same friendship and bond despite the distance and changes. we still have each other through ups and downs.

Indeed, TRUE FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND, HARDER TO LEAVE, AND IMPOSSIBLE TO FORGET--- coz i know, these girls----i won't forget. :)

click to enlarge photo gif. thank you. :*

VIPs in my life---my family.♥

they're the best!

i love you, guys.

if it's bound to happen, it will happen. ♥

where are those REAL MEN who find

love letters, chocolates, flowers, balloons,

stargazing and late night walks

ROMANTIC? :'(

♫♪♫♪ just a kiss - lady antebellum ♥

i woke up on the 15th of march, 2011 with nothing too special to expect. i went to the church hoping i could catch up with the mass, which i failed to attend since im sooooo late, then lit a candle and prayed to God for His blessings for the past 17yrs of my life. i also bowed my head hoping my wishes be granted if i just prayed hard enough.

when i got back home from the church, i turned on the pc opened my fb. i also reached for my phone and checked out what news my phone has to bring. instead of being annoyed by the  massive number of notifications, text messages and missed calls, i was filled with happiness. i was overwhelmed with the simple messages sent to me by friends, loved ones, colleagues. its such an overwhelming thought knowing you're being remembered by people. the feeling got more intense when my family showed me and gave me their warmest greetings. in the earliest time of day, even before the sun has set, i already have concluded THIS WILL BE A GREAT DAY. THIS WILL BE ONE OF THOSE UNFORGETTABLE DAYS IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.

indeed, it was one of the BEST UNFORGETTABLE DAYS.
evening came and the highlight of the celebration drew closer.
the setting never really calmed my nerves. it didn't alleviate the anxiousness i felt associated with what might occur this evening.

even if part of me was REALLY excited, the celebration turned out to start pretty late (as if everything i plan to do is on time, right?HAHA. why am i always late?). i was getting worried about visitors becoming impatient. thus, i was getting uneasy and much more to say RESTLESS. so, instead of starting the night with the 18 candles, i opt to start it with the dinner first then candles, and so forth.

after dinner, i was relieved to see my friends arrive right on time to catch up with the candles, etc.
i was very relieved seeing the sight of their beautiful faces appealing so spurred with was about to happen that evening.
i was again overwhelmed feeling the effort they have exerted just to celebrate that VERY SPECIAL DAY with me. Despite the distance, they came. THANK YOU, GUYS. (you know who you are).

i was also overwhelmed to see my old treasures gathered again. they are the people who knew the real me but never left. they stayed and was willing to stay. There's no other feeling that can be compared to the knowledge that they are there to celebrate with you which symbolizes they are still willing to be part of my 18th year. THANKS FOR NOT FORGETTING, GUYS. (you know who you are.)

i also finally understood the unconditional love and care the people that means the most have for me. Most especially, the love given to me by my parents, family, barkadas and friends.

through my bday, i was reunited with my BestFriends (TRIO), our kapatiran (JOE-FER-REYN-GEL), my newest group of friends (SiiXY), my old foster family (SP class), my latest foster family (BSA2), and the rest of my friends and colleagues. it feels so good to be back in each others company.

Most of all, that night i felt soooo free to be who i am  with out holding any secrets back. i guess its a step to becoming more bonded with the persons i treasure most. as quoted, "the secret of a successful relationship is having no secrets at all" and this applies to all types of relationships. bulgaran man kagabi, at least, i wont be guilty any longer. as long as i know im not doing anything bad or anything that's beyond what is demanded, im guilt-free. :DD

Before everything ended, i was already filled with little nuggets of wisdom. The nostalgia lasted longer than i expected.
It came into me that i never wanted this night to end, so, the gathering went on till morning. as a matter of fact, our LOUD laughs, LONG singing and LITTLE conversations went on till dawn. you might even consider it before the breaking of dawn. haha. actually, it was around 5am when we decided to surrender ourselves to the pillows. LOL

and i thought the pillows was the last stop.
when we woke up, we gathered around the dining table had coffee, milk, bread and had breakfast. afterward, the loud sound of the videoke echoed thru the whole neighborhood. it was as FUN as we had the night before. Until my friends left the vicinity, the fun we had still lingers.

Ergo, life really has its way in setting things into place. It gives us moments to be depressed but then takes it back by giving us unexpected moments to REJOICE 10 times better than we expected. Most of all, these happiness tends to be in the simplest forms like family, friends, loved ones, etc. AND did i tell you that these happiness are free? what more could you ask for? i know, i already have everything i wanted and needed. It might be too early to conclude that but as for now, i wont hold back appreciating every single blessing i have in life.

PS. to the persons who were there and celebrated with me, THANK YOU SO MUCH FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I LOVE YOU, GUYS.

*tears*

(posted on my FB notes last March 16, 2011)

1. Lord, i will be a goodie-goodie girl na po. i will be a responsible adult-to-be. wish ko po na mkapasa ako sa alam mo na. and promise, i will be a better catholic, student, sister, daughter, and person. i will be more faithful than ever. PLSSSSSSSSS!! Amen.

2.  to mama and papa: mag 18 nko hapit, im counting the days na! &&& im not asking much. kato lang gud kuan ug katong kuan. plssss, ma?? ayaw na nang party2 bsta katong kuan ug kuan ha?! plsssssss??? papa, ingna mama. plssssss .. mag good girl na lagi ko. pramisssss.. i will use those two to be better. pls?? (*you see, how bad i want those two.) LOL :DD

3.  to my sisters: i-kiss lang ko ninyo ug hug, payts na. tabangi lang pd ko ninyo ug ask ka mama. wahahaha.. ingna lang pd dy ko, "i love you, te." LOL

4.  to my friends: walaaaaa. okie lang wla gifts bsta naa mo dra always. pero, mas ayus pd pud pag naa mo dra always, naa pa jud mo gift. hahah..

5.  to all na nagpapa-treat: pag-iisipan ko pa, gusto ko bulsahin ang pera. magtipid njud ko. part of being a responsible adult-to-be na xa. hehehe. xenxa lang kay na-realize nko na. haha. sana maintindihan niyo. hehe

6.  to all concerned people: i pray lang ko ninyo na i-grant ni Lord to ako gi-ask. mao jud toy pinaka importante. :))

THANK YOU!
ana lang ka simple ako gi-ask. so, pag prepare namo. wait? naa ba jud dapat i-prepare? bwahahahah :DD

mwua :**
LOVELOTS ! :)

(posted on my FB notes last March 6, 2011)

"I've been stranded with YOU for quite some time already.
I think it's time to take a step forward."

I used to take my life one step at a time, and i made sure every step is worth taking.

But, when i bumped into YOU, i feel like i rather take it slower than i usually do.

Eventually, i made a STOP--- a rather inconvenient but entertaining STOP.

But, is it worth taking?

With all honesty, that stop was one of the good things that kept me satisfied for the times i needed

an extrinsic taste in my life. It was overwhelming, and much more to say, addictive.

It was the time i felt so satisfied of being who i am when im with you, that i no longer

feel like taking another step and i wanted more and more of those moments.

Yes, i was indeed stuck in the moment.

But not all good things are healthy, isn't it?

Well, of course, when i noticed that THAT STOP was getting unhealthy, i cut the tie.

I realized, I have to go on with my life and focus more on the destination that counts more,

the destination that is much more important to me, the destination that is RIGHT.

(Destinations are my aims when it comes to school, family, friends, self, etc.)

Sad to say, somehow i feel that THAT stop wasn't gonna take me any closer to that destination.

It was getting UNHEALTHY, and i cant do anything much to correct any deviations.

Cutting the tie was the "rightest" thing to do. It gave me the satisfaction

that we'll be facing different directions---two different but right directions.

Cutting the tie didn't mean i'd finally took the step, too.

Although, it gave me a just reason--an urge--to continue my walk.

But did i take the step?

NOPE. I DID NOT. For some reason, i do not know why.

I may have the reason already,

we may not have any connections already,

but, still, i don't feel like moving either of my feet.

WHY?

Maybe, because nothing much has changed. Only the tie, but we're all still the same.

I knew it. I won't be moving. Not, when im not given a PUSH.

You weren't moving, either,  which made me feel im MORE to be blamed,

for its not only me who has been jeopardized by this stop, but also you.

We have our whole life ahead of us, but where are we?

HERE, stuck in this HALLUCINATION that we're still okay, and we're still happy.

I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN. But, i just let it.

I wanted to, but then again, i dont. Mind-bugging decisions. arrgggg..

Nothing's holding me back anymore, no more deep feelings or people,

just the thought that i might miss that HAPPINESS and SATISFACTION.

So, why can't i take that effin' step? WHYYYYYY???????

Then, i heard the news, I'm happy you FINALLY made the step.

I felt much lighter knowing i can no longer be blamed.

You made a step, but i know, you're still looking back.

I won't meet your eyes, i wont take you aback.

So that sooner or later, you'll face front, hold your place, look straight, and know your aims.

It would be a healthier start. You'd be a better person than you already are.

Now, am i left out? OF COURSE, NOT.

Because here i am, NOW, lifting my right foot, planning to take the step.

FINALLY.

AM I TAKING THE STEP BECAUSE I WAS GETTING LEFT OUT?

super duper of course, NOT! no. no. NO.

im taking the step because now i've been pushed.

this was the push i've been waiting for.

the push that removed my guilt of breaking someone's heart,

and the push that opened my eyes from all those HALLUCINATIONS.

It's clearer now, i have to step.

You were ahead of me; when you made the stop. i stopped.

when you stayed, i stayed. when you moved, i found space to move forward, too.

I WAS BEHIND BECAUSE I WAS, at the first place, ALREADY GUILTY.

Guilty of treating you less than you deserved.

It's all clear. we're not meant to walk together, you are suppose to walk ahead of me.

And we're happier this way.

can't you see? im happy. you're happy.

NOW, IS IT WORTH IT? IS IT WORTH THE STOP?

above all odds, its worth it. but not worth another stop. :)

THANK YOU for that wonderful stop, though.

I guess, that's what i needed to keep my head back up straight.

waaa. i just read your criticisms and sarcasms.
im quite late to have read it now, eh? ahaha..
too bad for you, my confidence just got boosted, instead!

you commented on how good i look in photos (as if it wasn't a compliment). you're so NEGA!

even though you put it that way, well, i should tell you that my uniqueness, attitudes and Filipina beauty (including a not-so-fair-skin and filipina traits--not going with cliches) gives quite a remarkable touch-up to your first judgment. and that's were you should focus at. not on appearances. attitudes darling!

anyways, back to what you put up with.
at least, my photos aren't edited. not even one of them has been touched by any form of photoshop. ahaha.. its not with the angles, or light-settings.
admit it, i just look good no matter how you put it.

yea, you look good too. i cant deny. and your slender,.but i will never envy you---not with that attitude.
you're not good enough to be entertained,.(this is my 1st time to brag about my looks and attitudes-- guilty, but she pushed me to the limits. i have been quiet for a while because im a nice girl, but still, she went on with her *point-out to somebody status*..wait till she sees my OTHER side.)

REMEMBER: Before you put up with rush judgments, you should try to remember the quote " there is more than meets the eye!"
i have never judged you with anything that isn't obvious.
JUST BECAUSE YOUR INSANE OVER YOUR BOYFRIEND, DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO DRAG ME INTO IT!

and FYI. just because someone admires your BF doesn't mean she's going to do anything just to get your BF! c'mmon, we have a life, too, you know, and that doesn't include your boyfriend.

okay, to clear things out.
first, you should be proud of yourself to have a BF which lots of girls drool over and fantasized about even if that would be too juvenile. but still you should be proud,.
second, trusting your bf is more important than keeping him from socializing.
third, about what you intend to make me understand but you actually failed to, communication is still the key to success.you could have chatted with me over FB (since you usually caught me online) instead of wasting your time posting RIDICULOUS STATUS! dont you know that other people might actually judge you for that? doesn't it matter to you that your identity might be stained. that people might judge you negatively regarding of being such of a clingy girl friend? what you're doing is close to getting caught in a SCANDAL. seeesh, do people still care for character and identity?gaaah. im glad i still do.
fourth, you dont have to include your friends. i understand how friends help friends, but involving them in things that might cause their chance in going to heaven (ahahaha), is just playing rude, you know!! SELFISH actually!
LASTLY, i am not flirting with your boyfriend. i wasn't, im not, and i would never intend to! it doesn't mean that my clear and innocent admiration to him is soo-known that i would actually go straight at him, kiss him or maybe seduce him. i could never do that. i still have a NAME and DIGNITY to protect. waaaa. besides. the picture you saw was nothing. it was just a 16yr-old girl pushed to having a pic with a friend.. i could barely even call him a friend. gaaah. open your eyes already! wla akong ginawa. wla kang napatunayan! so, wla kang dapat i judge! jealousy is jealousy. that's it! im out of the picture.

if nahihirapan ka pa rin sa pag intindi, then there's definitely something wrong with you.

stop na ung mga status, ok?, its irritating. i know, di lng sa akin lahat ng status mo kasi dami kang kaaway, but pls. for everybody's sake. STOP! dont be a coward. go and tell me,or tell them! this applies in behalf of all your "kaaways"...

ok, para mas masaya ka, di lng yang boyfriend mo ang hinahangaan ko. it just so happened that he was the closest one to reach. pero hanggang dun lng.. d ako bobo.
im wiser than a hermit, actually.di nga smarter, but wiser.


haisxz.
yan tuloy.ii forgot to remind myself, IM AN "ANGEL", just like what my name suggests.i wont risk any chance of giving that name up just because someone's insecured. i'll let you pass this time. put up another fight with me and you'll see how "ANGELS" handles situations like this.

GOD BLESS you, ____! :))

send my regards to your boyfriend.

okay, so im a bit stressed out lately.

uhmmm, something about school, carreer and LOVELIFE (as if nman seryoso ako sa topic na yan). ahaha

anyways, frustration is known to be the feeling you get when you want something but eventually you can not have it. hmmmmpp.

so now, you probably have a clue why im frustrated. and by wanting something, i meant SOMEONE,.

uhhmm, how do i start. ok, well. there's this guy in school that i had a crush with since september (that was after our PE Night 1).. LOL, it all started at PE night 1. He stood out of the crowd, although his height wasn't really that noticeable. (he's a bit short, you know). but he's REALLY cute!

it was a cheerdance competition when they performed and he was placed in the center. darn it, that's were he caught my attention..

when we took off from the school's premises for our sembreak, i barely even remembered him. its just as if, he's just a stranger i met then forgotten. LOL.. 

but as soon as the 2nd semester started, i began seeing him again. AND life is just so playful that we were made to be classmates for one subject---that is, PE 2. wew. so you see, my admiration to him returned. and i can no longer stop thinking about him.

every PE class would seem like a work of art for me, with him in the picture.

he was my inspiration to go to school and to enter the PE class early despite the schedule. (PE class was scheduled at 7:30 am- 9:30am every Tuesday.)

as the days, weeks and months moved on, i became so fond of him, especially the hobby of glancing (or should we say, staring) at him every now and then (especially when he's not looking). blah, i cant stop myself from doing it! bleh!

even though we're class mates already, we never really got the chance to befriend each other. not until PE night 2 was approaching. we were to present a social dance presentation together, as a class. i was tasked to be the leader of our class. in this social dance, i had another partner, so does he. so we never got the chance to have get-to-know-each-other conversations.

practices were tiring but the exhaustion in my face would just disappear as the thought of seeing him at practices enters my mind. weeee. so you see, i became so attracted to him. the practices also gives me the satisfaction of talking to him even though it just meant business (or, conversations regarding the practice). and time came, i have to get his number for me to contact them during practices. at first, i hesitated to contact him. i was shy, you know. but somehow, i managed to move my little fingers around the keypad of my celphone and wrote a group text. i also managed to send it to the group including him.

i did not expect he would reply, though. but he did. and his reply wasn't about the "business" at all. it was something personal ( ok, not too personal but still its personal). he said, "sorry ante kay badlungon ko". he even managed to joke about calling me "auntie". waaaa. i immediately replied and told him it was ok, but i also managed to joke by calling him "uncle",. eversince that night, we would call each other auntie and uncle. he would sent me messages asking me about our nstp classes or practices, or he even starts simple text conversations as if he wants me to socialize with him, too. (as i interpreted) i just socialize with his classmates kasi. im shy kasi sa kanya...

days of practices went on, until the PE NIGHT 2 arrived.

it was just this March 5, 2010 when we had our PE night celebration at UIC-Annex Gymnasium. it was so fun and worth remembering. not just because we became the 4th placer out of the 16 presentors. (watcha think about that, eh?). aahahah. but also, it was our first time that someone took a picture of us TOGETHER. and what made that picture special was that he put his arm on my shoulders. waaaa. uber kilig! HAPPINESS! but what i did not know was it was only an ARTIFICIAL HAPPINESS. everything would just end as soon as the night was over. i never knew this would be our LAST!

the happiness i felt was somehow thwarted when i saw their (he and her gf --- he has a girlfriend) picture together at mcdo (i saw this picture the next next morning.) woah! well, i tagged him at our photos at facebook, though. but i never really wanted to start a fight with his clingy girlfriend. but his gf, over reacted and started putting status in FB that points out to someone (ME)!!!! waaah, but i wasnt guilty though, i did not flirt, just befriended. i knew my limitations. anyways, knowing how girls feel, i symphatized with his gf, and just accepted the fact that we were just impossible to be together. and my friends told me, he was not worth it for me, too. 

well, everything has to end, you know., including us, and the happiness he inflicted upon me within those times that we spent together. haisxz.. i just hope someday, i would find that real happiness in someone. a happiness that would not just end in a glimpse.

and i guess that's it, evrything started at PE Night 1 and ended at PE Night 2. i guess that's just the whole span of our chapter together in my life. wew. short though, but worthwhile. i never regretted even the frustration of  losing him,. 

maybe, he wasn't just what GOD has planned out for me. even if i thought we started something.. waaaa.

hahah.. dream on. i'll meet MY  guy someday. GOD has plans. :))

YESTERDAY---October 26, 2009 was my mom's 45th birthday..

it was a very busy day considering that there are soooooo many visitors.
gaaaah--i was so exhausted because i never did rest for a moment in entertaining visitors. you know, always making everyone feel comfortable, accompanied and the like. i kept on talking, talking, talking--well, jan naman talaga ako magaling. haha

anyways, MOM's bday made me realize how much i should treasure my mom. so many people loved her. and i should be her number 1 fan. i idolize my mom. she's pretty sociable. i dunno how she does it but she always manages to keep things on track! i salute you mom!

i proved that amidst mom's imperfections (being strict and all that), i still love her and can never hate her whatever harsh things she says to me when she reprimands me. waaaa

a couple of friends and neighbors serenade my mom early in the morning. gaaaahhh--pretty sweet and thoughtful of them,.  i wish people would do that to me on my bday too. waaaa.. also, some people went here at hoem just to deliver their gifts and greetings. they didn't even wait for the celebration in the evening to give their greetings and gifts../ they really made effort to give it ahead of the others. some friends of my mom bought her a cake, yadda yadda.... :DD

and of course, my dad gave her a gift. 'it was the LECHON BABOY!!! waaa.. that was my dad's blow out for her. if there are no other gifts that he gave that i dunno.waaa


and as a daughter, i gave mymom a scarf. i know how much he loves green so i bought a green one. i bought her a scarf because she travels alot and i want her to be always warm when travelling.
waaa

cheesy!

I LOVE MY MOM! ---gaaaaah! :))


i heart you mom!

i had a wonderful evening. wheeew..

so, we fetched our mom at the airport. she just arrived after a week of their business trip out of town.
i am so happy to finally see her again. i missed you mom.

after fetching her at the airport, we decided to go and take our dinner at Dencio's Hilltop, my most favorite spot here in Davao.

i am so happy to be there again. i feel so nostalgic and so serene whenever im there. its such a wonderful place to be. again, i caught sight of one of Davao's hidden beauties.

the city lights are so wonderful to look at. it brings so much joy into my heart. it seems like all my emotions wants burst out and be poured out in to the open. i want to savor every moment spent there. i love how the wind brush my face and my hair during my stay there.

i dont know, but i feel that part of me belongs there.. waaaaaa..
not really there (place) but there at the view. i always remember sweet stuffs, happy, lonely, every memory i want and need to be remembered. its a place wherein i want to emote with no concerns. waaaa..--cheesy.

but what's best about going there?

well, i guess, its the people im with and the conversations i have with them. it brings us much closer to each other. just like what happened this evening. the dinner was yummy, and satisfying to the stomach. but it didn't matter much because what mattered the most is our family conversation. we joked about stuffs, took pictures, until mom said that this place would be nice for a date or a even just for a stroll (haha--just what i thought for a long time already.) then, dad added, "yea, it would be nice to have a date here. but im hoping if you, children, would go out here and hang around with someone, i hope you wont mind bringing us along with you and your dates.",then we all laughed.

my sisters didn't mind about what mom and dad said, but as for me its a pretty remarkable thought. i was surprised and in awe. its nice to know that they are now adopting to my age. haha.. i mean, they, not being too strict and stuff. LOL

but wait, they also said. "but dont plan to have relationships  at a very young age. it would be better if you finish your studies first. but if you really feel you're soooooo in-love already. you can tell us, instead of hiding it. maybe we would make an exemption in some cases. you know, you can open to us anything. think of us like a barkada.."  waaaa, did my parents just said that? pretty striking, huh?!! im again dumbfounded! LOL.. and also overwhelmed! YES! hahahah..

at first, i thought my parents were just getting cheesy and stuff but later on i notice they really mean what they joked a while ago. nyaaiikkzzz...

my parents took a pretty ironic tactic, though. they generalized it to us (with my 2 sisters) but i really feel that they are more likely wanting to tell it to me alone rather than to me with them. maybe, they are adopting to the idea that im already in college and im getting closer to the age of maturity. and they know, sooner or later, i'll be deeply involve with someone and they dont want me to be led astrayed. lol.. nice move mom and dad.

i realize, my parents aren't getting any younger, maybe i should be more in touch with them, too. i thought, that if i plan to go out with somebody someday, imma let them ask my parents and i will tell my parents how i feel and maybe let them understand me. someday. hahaha..

what a very nice conversation. then we ended our meals after talking about more stuffs and then took a last glare at the open and headed on to the car to go directly home.

its another wonderful evening at the hilltop, watching the city lights at a distant view. i so love it there. i wish i could go there more often. i guess my heart and my mind really partly belongs to DAVAO and its lights.

that's all for this evening. goodnight fellas!

ANGEL here.
Nostalgia tonight at a bird's eye view. O_o

i dont really go on dates. :))
as a matter of fact, i haven't gone to a date yet (lol, im such a baby).

except for my date with my bestfriend, Raiza. she is the only person i go out to a restaurant or a fast food chain nearby to hang out, eat something and share stuffs we both enjoy. :))

but in this article, i would like to emphasize a "real date". the kind of stuff where a boy and a girl hangs out to know each other better. either they are friends that plans to make a level up (lol) , dating buddies, or even bf/gf related people.lol

as what i have said, i haven't gone to a date yet.
why?
i dont know. maybe no one's interested. lol
maybe im too young.
or maybe, because my mom and dad doesn't allow me to. (ggaaaahhh!)
---> anyway, im still 16. i dont mind if i haven't gone to a date yet.

but come to think of it, sooner or later, i'll go out with somebody someday.
and thinking of it makes me chuckle a little.

(ohh, before i continue, Filipino's teenage dates aren't harmful. and im a good girl. lol)
------> if you know what i mean.lol

anyway, i am now foreseeing myself in my first date..hmmpp.
and i hope it could be a sweet memory..

and so, cheesy-ness got in to me, and decided to list down a wishlist of how my first date might occur and with whom might i go out with that first date thingy. :))

let's start with how:

i really think that a nice dinner, a stroll around a park , and a nice movie together is really sweet for a date.
but i think its best if i stick with something i want rather than what is ssooooo common in order to have the best first date ever..

dates should be a stage wherein two people would get to know each other in an intimate and more profound manner.

so, i came up with:
a date that is___perhaps _____:

*a long walk on the beach. --hmmmp, its really nice to get to know someone with the placid wind blowing at your face gusting your hair freely, and the sand tickling your feet and leaving footprints along that seashore marking the end of being strangers.

*watching the city lights in a distant view.--i have done this with my family and my best friend, and i felt so happy. and i became more comfortable being with them. so i thought, a place like this would be perfect to become more comfortable with someone especially when both are you are still sort of introverted with each other.

*riding bikes together somewhere, either in a park or anywhere-- i have always liked riding bikes. and everytime i ride bikes, i always remember my childhood wherein it doesn't matter who im with, as long as im having fun with him and my bike, nothing would matter. lol- so dramatic though, but that's really how i feel. so, if i would go out in a date like this, i bet we'd be like playmates and would enjoy the time together without noticing what is happenning around us. again, over dramatic..lol. but seriously, this would be more fun. and a more comfortable way of getting to know wach other. also, this would save all the cheesy-ness in dates. lol ^_^

i could go out with __:

hmmmpp..anybody. lol
yea, of course, i could go out with you. That is, if you are NICE!!! lol :))

but i think i would like to go out with someone who:

*likes babies as much as i do.--would be fun to be with. at least we have a common point of interest. :))

*knows how to cook.--a guy who knows how to cook is a total hottie. :))



*someone who finds letters, chocolates, flowers and the like NOT CHEESY. waaaaah. i love sweet people. hahaha


*wont bother to react and just giggle.--if i do something hilarious, stupid, clumsy..

*would say im cute even if i did those stupid things;
and

*would tell me how he feels and thinks about me with conviction. lol-- cheesy!! haha..

*knows how to act natural and not plastic.

*and most of all, someone who would ask permission to my parents if they would like to go out with me. even if i would tell him, not to. he just persists because he knows it is right and is the best thing to do to start a date.


im not saying that this how it should be, im just emphasizing that this is how i wish it could
be.

as what i have said, this is a WISHLIST.

anyway, nobody or nothing appears/is perfect, though.
but try to get into my world, you'll see how imperfections creates such a perfect and nostalgic feeling.
its not about the world's standards, its all about happiness.

true happiness only comes once, kaya never waste every single laugh. you dont know when it'll be your last.

--LOL, what a far-fetched ending to my entry. LOL
i just feel like including and relating it to my post, though. ^_^